Thursday, June 23, 2016

Stitch Fix #2

Stitch Fix is my favorite. I did my first Fix six months ago and liked all the items I received. I felt so pampered. Retail shopping is something I rarely, if ever, do and Stitch Fix fits nicely into my life. 

You fill out a form to let them know what you like, about your lifestyle, and preferences in color and items. Having a fashion Pinterest board is helpful so your stylist can get an idea of what your tastes are. (Here's mine: http://pin.it/KfI3CjD

I was excited that I got two referral bonuses to use ($25 each) and in addition if you keep all five items they choose for you, you get 25% off! 

It costs $20 as a styling fee, but if you keep an item, you get it taken off your order. These items averaged $30 after the discounts. 

Now with the basics out of the way here's what I got:

Elaine Ikat Print Pocket Front Knit Tee
I would never have picked out either the color or the pattern, but I really like it. It's extraordinarily soft and will dress up if I want. The light color is more of a light blue than is showing in the picture.

Banzai Twist Detail Top

This is a dressier fabric that I would worry about spilling on or the kids goobering, so this is strictly a going out of the house shirt. I don't own anything green either, so I am surprised how much I like it. The twisty neck is a fun detail, and I could still wear a necklace with it. 

Montgomery Cross Front Top

This is a knit fabric, also incredibly soft and, I think, quite flattering and nursing friendly

Halle Printed Flare Skirt
I really love this skirt. It's got a vintage feel in both feel and pattern. I have one almost like it with polka dots. It has the unfortunate flaw of being a bit too snug and not having an elastic waist. Since having all these kiddos, I am all about the elastic waist. I may alter it so it's more comfortable, because it is definitely not an all day item as is. 


Sam Hi-Lo Short Sleeve Tee
This shirt, again, is amazingly comfortable and so soft! I'm quite tactile so that matters to me quite a lot. It is a good basic piece and a lot higher quality than what I am used to wearing. 

However, it is not very forgiving. Here is what it looks like with the wrong pants and wrong bra.



If I keep all five items, the discount basically lets me get 1 1/2 of them for free. And as an added incentive, I don't have to go to the post office! 

 What do you think? Would you keep them all? I need to decide by Saturday. (You have five days to decide, I just couldn't get the pictures taken and the post done right away.)

If you decide you want to try Stitch Fix, I'd be honored if you went through my link: https://www.stitchfix.com/referral/6383365

Friday, June 10, 2016

Gentle Parenting in a Big Family

I first became committed to Gentle Parenting--parenting without threats, spanks, yelling, anger--three years ago. We always have been Attachment Parents--breastfeeding, baby wearing, cosleeping are a few of the tenets--, but  I didn't understand Gentle Parenting or Peaceful Parenting, or how it could possibly "work". I even joined a Gentle Parenting board and tried to learn more, almost a decade ago, but it was not a good fit at the time.

Gentle Parenting as described eloquently by L.R. Knost "is guiding instead of controlling, connecting instead of punishing, encouraging instead of demanding. It’s about listening, understanding, responding, and communicating.” It is a concious shift away from the way I was brought up, away from what everything in my body is demanding, away from the gut center of my brain.

Gentle Parenting is, I think, a bigger challenge for me than traditional parenting because it requires more from the parent. More thought, more emotion, more connection, just more. No matter how you parent, or how many kids you have, it's hard, don't get me wrong. When I had two little daughters and I was spanking, it was hard. Now though, I have to think more about why I'm being reactive and what is going on in my child and what is the behavior trying to tell me and teach them how to problem solve at the same time I'm trying to change a diaper and spell a word and give directives and help a child and there are six of them!

I follow several Gentle Parenting pages on Facebook and it seems like they all have one or two children. It feels frustrating because they offer their good solutions, and say things like "if you...then they will..." and it just doesn't happen right away. The dynamics in a home with one or two children are very different than a home with several. I am dealing with teenagerish hormones at the same time I'm nursing a baby with four loud and active and strong children in between!

I don't think I thought this "big family thing" through very well.




It is hard to coach a small child through their big emotions. It is hard when some kid is lying stiff as a board and mad faced in the middle of the floor when everyone else is following directions and  you know if you stop and help this kid through it, everyone else's well oiled machine-ing will grind to a halt. It would be so much easier to say, "Fine. If you're not going to clean up then no TV tonight." Or "Fine. If you're going to act that way, you don't get to be with the family" and physically drag that child to the corner. I know this, because even though I'm committed to Peaceful Parenting, I'm not perfect at it. 

There is still yelling and still anger, and still fights and frustrations and upsets. The differences are dynamic though. Instead of angrily telling my child "You're acting like a brat!" (yes. I said that.) I can now angrily say, "I am so angry right now! I feel so frustrated when you hit your sister! I need to calm down! (I take some deep breaths, and ask, more calmly)What can we do differently next time?" I am teaching my children important skills when I do this.

I see a huge difference in Aviana at 3 and Elivette at 3. Elivette knows she is respected as a human being and an integral part of our family. I thought I was showing the same sorts of things to Aviana, but because I punished her when she threw tantrums, didn't allow her grace when she was angry or "disobeyed", because I honestly thought I was doing what would teach her how to be a compassionate, loving grown up. 

Elivette and Aviana handle their emotions completely differently. Aviana, almost 12, has been 'gentle parented' for three years, but Elivette has known it this way her entire life. Aviana will sneak pinch or hit her sister when frustrated; Elivette will cry "I'm so mad!" and we'll work through it together and let her feel those emotions and let them dissipate. Aviana is used to stuffing them down because they weren't accepted for so much of her life. Elivette doesn't really have tantrums, because she feels heard most of the time, and knows she's accepted. Aviana threw tantrums of epic proportions. 

I know a lot of it has to do with personality and I know each child is different. I don't want you to read this and think "I gentle parent and my kid still has fits. I must suck." That is NOT what I'm saying! I just know this to be true in my own family--that I am seeing the fruit of this hard work of gentle parenting these lovely chiddlers, as they grow into compassionate, loving adults.

(As an aside, I was spanked, screamed at, belittled, criticized, hurt, and more, and I still grew up to be a lovely human being. This post is not meant to give guilt trips. At. All. I'm just trying to relate how positive of a change this has been in my family, and how I am seeing delightful things happening here. )


Tuesday, June 07, 2016

Farm Fresh Family Update


Brielle and Finnella looking for books on CD

I haven't blogged for six months! I have lots of good reasons/excuses, depending on how you look at it. But I miss it and I enjoy it and I am doing it for me, so I'm back! It's hard to let go of expectations--like how blogging has kind of turned into article writing, and I don't always (ever) have the brain space for an actual article, so I felt like I couldn't compete. But with whom am I competing? And why!?

I'm learning a lot about myself and being a better self.

The Farmer: He's busy with the farm as always. He's got more cows than ever, and more feed lot cattle too. He's putting up a lot of forage (hay, rye) for the winter and to hopefully sell. He's working on spraying now. He does his best to take children with him whenever he can and to be home for dinner, or at least bedtime. As any working parent knows, it's a challenge to be pulled in a lot of different directions, and with farming, you can't leave your woes behind at the office, it's always there. Staring you in the face. Glaring at you.

The Farm Fresh Mama: I've got my hands in a lot of different pots. I've gotten back into serving my community as a doula and love holding space for mamas so they can see their own power. It's a beautiful, celestial calling.

I have more than doubled the garden this year. I'm doing Square Food Gardening and trying something new, Straw Bale Gardening. I don't think my peas are going to make it, and will have to start over with them, but everything else looks good. I've gotten a new hobby of "planning", which is writing my to do list and decorating it, and writing down what we did in quick bullet points in a composition notebook. It's a fun segue between scrapbooking and keeping track of what I need to do on the backs of kids' drawings. Writing "water garden" in my planner helps it actually get done. Funny how that works.


Finnella on Memorial Day
I'm doing something new with the boys for school, called Easy Peasy Homeschool. The woman who put it together did a curriculum for ALL THE GRADES, of activities to do with links added. It's amazing she did this and I am so thankful. It eliminates the problem of never being able to find the book I need. It doesn't matter how organized I am, there is always a missing book! They like being able to play games and be on the computer. 

I love homeschooling and seeing their successes and the delight for learning gleam.

Aviana: This child is almost as tall as I am and it blows my mind. She weighed as much as a bag of sugar when I brought her home from the hospital and now she's looking me in my eye. IN MY EYE! She earned Memory Master again this year. I am proud of how she puts her mind to something and attains it. She's going to be a seventh grader. She plays piano and earned a spot in a special recital for students who have been given a Superior rating three years in a row at festival. She took up violin this year too and we are putting her in orchestra at the junior high. I'm feeling nervous about that, almost like sending a child off to kindergarten!

Brielle: She's as precocious and adorable as ever. She achieved Memory Master in Classical Conversations this year, as a nine year old. That is a big deal! She plans to do it the next two years and try for National Memory Master, which would put us on a cruise (and makes her my favorite)! I love how much she can do when she puts her mind to it! 

Cadrian; My sweet boy has grown so much this year! He is reading better than ever, helps me garden, and is our chief breakfast maker. He specializes in Toad in a Hole and oatmeal. He is amazingly thoughtful and kind to me (which is why he's my favorite), and absolutely likes to stir the pot when it involves his siblings. 

Denton: He is learning right along side Cadrian and often feels shuffled in the middle. He's sensitive and tough at the same time, the tough being a cover up for the sensitive. I wish people could see the sweet and sensitive easier, because it's so easy to start off going toe to toe with him. I'm so thankful I discovered what Gentle Parenting really means before he ever got spanked (because he's my favorite). It's hard enough to figure out how to help him reach his full potential with the respectful parenting tools I DO have in my arsenal. He's as bright as a brass button and full of his own ideas. 

Elivette: She is talkative and adorable and loves to say "Pwetty Pwincess Pwease". She sports dresses all the time and often a tiara. She is smart as a whip and as thoughtful as you please. She has an amazing memory and astounds me with what she comes up with. Her three year old year has been so completely different than the older girls' (probably because she's my favorite). I can't help but wonder how much my parenting shift has had to do with it. She 

Finnella (my favorite) has turned one! She has been taking some steps here and there. She loves being outside and in point of fact is sitting right next to me on the couch literally screaming at me because I am not taking her outside. I stood up with her just now and she stopped screaming. I took her outside and put her in the swing and she smiled. She knows what she wants and doggedly goes after it.She likes her swing in the tree the best, but will happily crawl around where ever we are. She doesn't like the feel of the sidewalk or grass so crawls on one knee and one foot. She waves, babbles like crazy, and lets you know her needs, but doesn't sign anything yet. 

One more thing that I wanted to mention is how vital my mama tribe has become. I have always had friends, but in the past couple of years, I have been given the gift of people who understand my heart and my very soul in a way I haven't experienced. It has helped me become more like the person I've always wanted to be.



D, F, E, B, A and C and me on a hike at Starved Rock State Park

Saturday, December 12, 2015

Stitch Fix and more

Baby Girl, Sweet Fizzy Baby, is six months old now.
 I am starting to feel like I can do this thing, this mothering six souls thing. I am not crying every day any more and I am laughing. It feels wonderful to laugh again.

One thing that really helped is the Handsome Husband and I went on a short impromptu vacation to Las Vegas of all places. We went with another couple which just made it even better. The laughter! The being a person, not just a mom! The space in my brain!
Finnella and me waiting to go up in the High Roller

The Farmer, Finnella and Me at Hoover Dam

Just some farmers checkin' out the big city.

I've also been having a hard time because I am still wearing maternity jeans and leggings all the time. I realize I'm 40 now and this is baby #6. I know that appearance isn't everything. I know my heart and love and compassion matter more. I know all that, and yet it still bothers me that I went from my high school size pre-pregnancy to not even being able to fit into my "fat clothes" now, six months later.

I heard about Stitch Fix and thought it might help my self view a little bit to have some nicer things to put on this amazingly capable, mama strong body. I decided to join Stitch Fix because I never have time to shop for myself. I'm only just now leaving the baby with her dada for any length of time. Stitch Fix is an on line stylist/personal shopper. You fill out a detailed profile for yourself, noting what styles you like and any details you think would be pertinent, such as needing access to be able to breast feed, or a preference for no holey pants.

I also like that it's completely free to join and there is no commitment. I signed up to just try one fix, although you can do it monthly if you want to. There is a $20 styling fee that you only have to pay if you don't keep anything from your order. If you keep all five of the items they send, you get a 25% discount. Since I'm almost exclusively a Goodwill shopper, the prices are definitely high for me. I hardly have anything in my closet I bought new.

I got my first Fix on Tuesday, unfortunately when I was sick in bed and couldn't even bring myself to open the box. I tried on the items yesterday and decided to keep all five because the discount was equivalent to getting one of the shirts free. One interesting thing about my Fix was that I wouldn't have even tried on most of these items if I were in the store and saw them on the rack.


This is a navy asymmetrical cardigan and infinity scarf. The cardigan makes me appear to have a waist :) and the pop of pink in the scarf matches almost everything in my closet and keeps me warm.


This is a grey crochet inset shirt. The fabric is "nicer" than what I usually wear (nearly always tee shirt fabric). The cut isn't super flattering but  I really like the details and the fancy feel of the fabric.

This is a charcoal extraordinarily soft tee shirt. Business up front, party in the back! It's perfect for accessorizing with something, perhaps a bold necklace or a scarf.

I wasn't too keen on a tank top in my December Fix, but I thought maybe I could wear it under a jacket or cardigan and I would be warm enough. My sister-in-law does this all the time, so maybe it will work for me too. Nevertheless, I can wear it in the summer because I love the scalloped hem, the gathering at the yoke, and the button detail in the back.


If Stitch Fix is something you would like to try, I'd love it if you used my referral link!
https://www.stitchfix.com/referral/6383365

Tuesday, December 01, 2015

Birth prayer banner making written by Brielle, age 8

We have been making birth affirmations the past few days.the first day we made water color paintings with my mom, Rose Hains, and Lydia Hains.
then that night I wrote calligraphy on them.what?!?!?!?!?!?!? You say that's NOT calligraphy?!?!? Ok fine. it's not ACTUAL calligraphy, but My brain is Too tired to do ACTUAL calligraphy at the end of the day. Then that morning Brielle made them into banners.don't you like the pattern? The thing is that we ran out of the white ribbon, THEN we ran out of the pink ribbon.
  We still have more to do. last night Brielle wanted to do more, but I said no.

Sunday, November 29, 2015

The Farmer

Happy Anniversary!

December 2009

hard at work, as usual

He walks in the house and we hand him a baby
Finnella at a few weeks old

Monday, August 24, 2015

Farm Fresh Birth and Birth Boot Camp

I have a new business page! www.farmfreshbirth.com

I recently got certified as a Birth Boot Camp childbirth educator. I am thrilled about this new endeavor. Share this information with anyone you know who is expecting this winter.

Birth Boot Camp will help you prepare for the event of a lifetime! The sign up is located here.